R U feelin Michi today?U better be feelin Michi xD

midnight,3:25am i woke up (slept at 12:08am)

had nightmare..

first thought jumpped to my mind was to call you..

but i didnt want to distract u from sleeping..

so i texted first,however i was scared of the nightmare i had after i text you..

so i called you anywayz..

then…du..du…du…(you picked up)

me:( finally started breathing…)

i  was horrified by my nightmare..

thank god you are here with me:) thank god you picked up:)

thank god that i do have someone in my mind when things like this horrifies me:)

 i love you

i love you

i love you:)

i will make u proud mom.

u made me tear today

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afternoon , after internship at 6pm, then when to phone store,

then went to my mom’s office,was goin to drop off the monthly metrocard she gave me, so she doesn’t have to walk home in this dark weather,

she insisted to give me money, so i can pay my credit card, this feelin isn’t good at all, i felt bad for still using her money

but still…she gave me 800 and told me to pay off bill, then use the rest, told me to save it to my bank acount…

then…i said” mom, i promise i will start the dance thingy by this month, im sorry..”

she cuts me off” what promise??why promise?? don’t have to promise me! I know you are doing your best and have been putting alot effort to it!”

me:”……(watery eyes)”

mom: “ai~~ya~~~”

me:hugs my mom…”i love you mom, i’m sorry”

mom: pushes my chest.. “yoi~yoi~yoi~”

me:watery eyes…tried my best to keep them in….sinff sniff…

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mom… i really do love you, thank you for everything, thank you really.

ask me how much i want u by my side, every time when u leave, im really about to cry…

really happy day with you today…

pillow fight, 

soho

ninja assassin..(i already saw the whole movie actually:P)

…really don’t like to see you leave..but..

nvm..

I love you:) ALOT more than you do :) 

KPOP BEST MALE DANCERS

kpop best male dancers:jay park„junho,(2pm) tae yang(big bang),yunho jung(DBSQ),Tae min(Shinee),Eun Hyuk(super junior)

I WAS READY TO FACE IT IF IT HAPPENS…:)

i was so worried recently

coz it was delayed for many days..

i was asking myself„,what if i am…

i constantly asked myself..

and my answer was…i…don’t mind…

i don’t mind because I love you so much…that I was even a little happy…

today…laying on your chest…resting in your hug, being “sick”…i told myself…

“this man…i don’t ever want to lose him”…

and when I rested in my hug while we watched the movie “LXD” 

I was staring at you from the back…”this man right here…makes me so happy by simply being here by my side,in my arms…”

I like to hug you, I like you hugging me…

I love to kiss you, I love you kissing me…

I love to love you, I love you loving me…

I … :)

2/19/2011

first time ignoring your phone call and rejected u coming see me…

im sorrry, 

my sadness was built up to a point already

and i couldn’t stay quiet no more:( 

i had to communicate with u..

i had to change myself to adjust ur “busy”

but…im happy that we did have this “texting” today

i found that u do still love me like u use to,

and ur “I love you more every day we hangout :(” did make me feel better:))

Sorry for hanging up your phone because I thought u wanted me to hangup already coz u repeated good night about 6, 7 times…:((

im sorry if i made u upset by hangup first, but that’s really wut i thought.

sorry baby;(

me hate make u upset or have any negative feelings 

I can only be happy when my love’s happy.

u know what i mean:)?

 i didn’t change„,i was just acting like I don’t care that you want to sleep..

i was acting, i didn’t change, so don’t worry:)

i do, i do. 

obsession.

I will fall asleep with a smile on my face, knowing that I got you, I have you, who bright up my world.:)

we woke up at 1:30am todayo.O

sorry for giving your parents heart attack, oh god!!!:(

PS:I love you, and thank you for coming over:)

I want to take driver licence test next week:) <3

today 

I 

realize

how

much 

I don’t want 

to lose you

I LOVE YOU,even if you make me tear sometimes…

no one can replace you,NO ONE. At least at this moment.